When I Look At You

When i look into your eyes I see a pain that should have never been. With all my heart and soul I want to save you from the hurt within. But in the mist of trying to save you I can't help but give you my heart. My soul constantly telling me this is where it belonged from the start. Truely you remind me of my favorite sad song, Beautiful, sweet, sad and has a message that is strong. The melody sweeps me away before I know it I've drawn a tear. The beauty of it all has me wrapped up and has pulled me near. If I could take away your pain, anger, and hate inside, I feel I would be saving our love, so that it wouldn't have to hide. If you could show me your whole heart, perhaps I could show you mine, We could save each other you know, so we could stop being so blind. When I look at you I see my friend, who I in secret loved for years A love I thought was lost to me, that I could have had if I saw past my fears. When I look at you I see a fighter who has his eye on what he wants A lion if you will, an I feel I am the prey and you are on the hunt. The feeling of this excites me, but I am reminded of a fact I belong to someone else, and I just cant hurt him like that. The pain of this truth has been killing me, I even thought about ending my life. I would rather be dead than to hurt either of you, I love you both but thats not right. I'm not trying to be greedy, or selfish, but the truth is I am confused. My walk is not to find my own happiness, its to comfort the hurt and abused. Somehow my heart gets stuck in the middle, and i become one who needs to be saved. My feelings are strong and they don't lie, to my heart I am but a slave. You came along, and you have givin me more than i thought you could. And although you have caused me pain, my heart can only see where you have given good. You hurt me with your words, but my heart turns a deaf ear to your defense. My heart knows you are protecting yourself, and you have a right to, I mean it only makes sense. This started off being words to a man I love from my heart I'm ending this as words to that man who of me, will always have a part. This life is not easy, we all have to do the best we can do But my heart smiles brightly when I think of you.