When a Woman Leaves a Girl

after all,a woman's mistakes are different from a girl's they are etched by fire on stone they are in fact considered traits, not just errors and now you're so alone when you were 14 they all said how much potential you had now you hit 19 or 20, and you're just considered bad if you were a troubled kid, things were different than most for you and i don't mean GETTING in trouble,although for some,it's that too but depression is so very real,they just have no idea and looking in the mirror to feel,you must skip your next meal you are never good enough,and always fall just short of pretty although you are considered smart and extremley funny and witty they way that you percieve yourself,is different than what others see at least that's what i have been told,do you agree with me? but why is it that when your younger,people just want to help but once you reach 19 or 20,your just dealt the cards your dealt i don't feel any different inside,i can tell you that for certian the older i get,the less they care,i hide behind a curtain i'm still a kid at 21,at 22 as well.. im still a child in alot of ways,living in an emotional hell where did all the helping hands go,the ones that were there before i blame myself for not taking that help and will forever more because now apparently,it's too late,nobody cares about me i am not a cute little girl,just a woman who needs to be free i ask of you,human to human,the next time you want to judge pray for patience if you need to,ask for help from above but something tells me im not alone,there are others who experienced this there are others out there that need help so badly,please don't miss don't miss their smiles,that are still so young,even though they look so grown at 21 we are not adults,and pretending we are makes us feel alone maybe i AM alone in this feeling,i have no idea but what i do know,for sure i feel...this is very real.