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What Now

I wonder what will happen now
That your decision has been made.
Your mind's made up; your plans thought out;
Your fate is sealed, all debts are paid.
 
Our time is past; the past is dead.
There is no resurrection here.
It's over now and we'll move on
to new adventures far and near.
 
We both have learned a lot it seems.
Those lessons, yes they caused us pain.
Someday I know my heart will heal
But until then won't love again.
 
It's broken and no use to me;
No glue or thread can mend it now.
The only hope is time will pass
As quickly as you broke your vow.
 
I trusted you, that trust is gone
Just like the wind, away it blew;
The day you said you'd changed your mind
And someone else awaited you.
 
I don't know why we both held on
so long. That should've never been.
I wanted you to realize
You loved me; not just as a friend.
 
I waited, hoping for so long
The error of your ways you'd see,
And some day maybe you'd wake up
And realize you still loved ME.
 
But you moved on at lightning speed;
Found someone else to love, but still
You never told me how you felt,
Or didn't feel, and never will.
 
And so I clung to hope in vain.
I should've seen the signs I know.
But the eyes of love don't want to see
The signs of someone letting go.
 
I know that I should wish you well,
And maybe that will be, someday.
But the pain of losing you to her
Will never cease nor go away.
 
I'm sorry, but I cannot stand
The thought of you with someone new.
Sometimes I think I'd rather know
That you were dead; no, that's not true!
 
For if you died, then I'd die too.
I couldn't let you go alone.
I'd go with you, stay by your side;
Protect you from the Great Unknown.
 
I'd walk through Hell to let you know
How much I think your love is worth.
But knowing that you love another
Makes my life here Hell on earth.
 
As close as we have always been
I know now I must let you go.
To live your life the way you choose;
Give up my dreams from long ago.
 
Someday I hope you will look back
With fondness at the memory.
Of our sweet love, brief as it was,
And know that it was meant to be.
 
Too late by then, to make a change,
For I will have moved on and yet,
Some part of me will yearn to know
If one day you will have regret?
 
Regret for breaking someone's heart
Whose love was once so strong and true.
Faint memories of smiles and tears
From long ago: still missing you.
 
I myself, have no regrets.
I did my best; I will stand tall,
Tis better to have lost your love,
Than never known your love at all.

Copyright © Cathy Martin | Year Posted 2011

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