What It Is To Be Me

My arms wrapped around tightly
My life is all so frightening. 

My eyes squeezed shut
It was never a question of luck.

My legs kicking fiercely
The pain nearly kills me.

Inhale, kick, squeeze
No one there to hold me. 

Holding my breath forever
Failing in every endeavor.

My heart beating with a scare
Closing in with no air.

Inhale, kick, shake
All those I forsake.  

Fist in a ball
Then it’s in the wall.

Why, why, why
Invisible if I hide.

My body collapsing inside
No longer a place to hide.

Inhale, shake, kick
There goes another tick.

Fear, fear, fear
What did you overhear?

Muscles flexed
What’s coming next?

Exhale, stop, listen
Your life is not to be questioned.

Your arms wrapped around tightly
Your life is all so frightening.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2008

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Guzzi Avatar
January 7, 2010 at 6:37 AM
Fear is an awful, crippling THING. My best advise from one who has fought through SO many fears is JOIN THE BATTLE! Every fear overcome expands your life and all its possibilities! Light & Love
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January 5, 2010 at 8:57 AM
Many congratulations on your fine poetry being featured this week, Happy New Year to you >> James
Mason Avatar
January 4, 2010 at 2:09 PM
I'm assuming this is about drug withdrawal and with your incredible description you are truly brave to share it with us. Excellent write to be featured this week at the Soup!! Congratulations!
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January 4, 2010 at 11:58 AM
Good use of imagery for an interesting perspective. Congratulations on having your poem featured. Wishing you continued success with your writing. Karen
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January 4, 2010 at 6:54 AM
Congrats on your beautiful poem! Hugs Always, Robin
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January 4, 2010 at 3:12 AM
Congratulations on your poetry being featured this week Jennica. May you have may more. Love, Carol
Walker Avatar
May 12, 2009 at 8:17 PM
Thank you both! :)
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May 12, 2009 at 6:21 AM
Congratulations on your poetry making it into the semi finals. Wishing you the best of luck in the finals. Love, Carol
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May 3, 2009 at 9:54 PM
Jennica, my belated congrats in making the semi finals...Raul
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