What It Is To Be Me

My arms wrapped around tightly My life is all so frightening. My eyes squeezed shut It was never a question of luck. My legs kicking fiercely The pain nearly kills me. Inhale, kick, squeeze No one there to hold me. Holding my breath forever Failing in every endeavor. My heart beating with a scare Closing in with no air. Inhale, kick, shake All those I forsake. Fist in a ball Then it’s in the wall. Why, why, why Invisible if I hide. My body collapsing inside No longer a place to hide. Inhale, shake, kick There goes another tick. Fear, fear, fear What did you overhear? Muscles flexed What’s coming next? Exhale, stop, listen Your life is not to be questioned. Your arms wrapped around tightly Your life is all so frightening.