What Is Normal

What is this thing people call.... Normal? My life is just a series of abnormal events I try to stay sane But I really want to vent All the secrets All the lies Is this really the way I have to live my life Here one minute There another I am tired... Tired of living a double life Tired of hurting the people that i claim to love Tired of acting What is normal? I long for a "normal" life One that isn't split into two One life One that doesn't consist of constant chaos I dream of what my life could be or what it couldn't be Being controlled by the words of others Being pulled in two directions at the same time Never knowing the time Never knowing what's next What is normal? The Google definition... Normal: conforming to a standard; usual, typical, or expected. Typical uh I guess this is my normal Being unhappy Making the people that i love unhappy Abandoning people Why is this MY normal? THIS IS NOT NORMAL!! I want to BE normal I want to HAVE normal