What Have I Done

Looking back on yesterdays days of dying almost crying Not so long ago I lay looking for another day doubtful times though they were I looked forward for what was in store And coming closer to the end of the road I believed I had reached the final goal Prepared to meet God I was looking for glory and heavenly reward Thinking of those who went before waiting for me at heavens door But looking back at my past was amiss where was the joyful bliss looking back for a job well done What really had I overcome? where are the foot prints that I leave the world My outer greatness my flag unfurled My winning way as chances I took The things they mentioned in a book who was I, the question asked what was I, the given task When was I behind the mask And where does pride and confidence bask Was I historical or metaphorical to what we have today Or was my departure just a going away Hopes and dreams were not the answer Wars I fought not being drafted The change in the world that lasted Was it really what I desired was I the prophet the angels hired