What God?

So many people on social media and in my life continuely tell me Jesus and God God and Jesus, they'll always love you if u just praise them and keep praying. You keep Talking about how he is coming to earth SOON. FYI (The rapture), & About how God is great God is good he's going to bless you just praise him .... This message is not me telling you that I have fallen in his glory by no means but it's an in-reverse reaction to what everyone keeps pushing down my throat & trying to make me believe in what they or all of you believe. Let me tell you in your lamen terms what I have read from your so called Bible versus. I Don't remember what chapter or verse or scripture that 18 year old or young Nina had read it from however- No one is to force religion on any other person or being! No one is supposed to make another person believe in God. Yet that's all I hear about that's all that's shoved in my face! I have dabbled in that life, of knowing God is the savior and he is our God that he blesses all of his so called children... however with all that is said with all that has to be stuff down my throat I never hear and never heard anything of why your so called savior your saving grace and your ?? puts pain on his children instead allows his bad child or as you call him lucifer, Satan, or the Devil ?? to harm and keep harming everyone? He supposedly is the father so banish or discipline his bad ass for doing wrong and or bad things. Teach him the way that we all are taught. This devil and God theory is such child games I feel like its a cat and mouse featuring a Dog game! Better yet in a game of good apple rotten apple, truth or dare god good devil bad or playing pretend when we're taught even as children the fine line of -- "if you cant see it than nothing is there" or the most famous life lessons are "whats real and what's fake." "The good and The bad." "The pretty and The ugly."..... Let me be real with all of you, "It is what it is." It's just that Simple! The only reason I turned away from God is because of the death of one of my younger brothers and the reason I won't turn back to him is because of everyone and everything else keeps forcing God life continuely down my throat!!!! No more speeches Do not try to convince me or convey any other messages from anyone and anything else else. Let me grieve and let me move forward the way I know how to! The more you force something the more it will be rebelled against! Life Lessons.....