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For what exactly enate Value do I personally so much Place and stake Numbers in order to derive Just how so many lives The message I so desperately sought Within to deliver And future cost It pains me dearly I may pay Will not even even see the light of day Matters not When all and sundry is forgot As I and if alone will only are to be enabled To know the real and only true Enate true actual real value That I alone Care desperately enough To pour These my mere Words and heartfelt thoughts To you here another If neither you don't either Care or give the slightest Damn about For after all then Who am i deceiving But sadly me My own self And my fragile mental health