What Do I Do

It's been 5 months 
since the day I passed away
I haven't been doing much since then
Besides that, I've got so much to say

I can't seem to forget about you
despite what I do.
I don't love you anymore
so, what should I do?
Our last night out was such a bore. 
But I didn't intend for you to close our lore.

I'd apply my cologne whenever we went out.
Now, it's only sitting on my desk, partially empty.
I sprayed it once in my room 
for it to smell fine.
It did the chore, but it brought back the memories
we had together.
I had to stop using that cologne after. 

I ruminate about you much
despite not loving you anymore
I made the choice to finally kill it,
but I'd never seen how much I would regret it.
If you came back, I'd be a reminder that you had forgiven me,
since I can't seem to forgive myself,
despite what I say or how hard I fight.

I'm alone in my room, writing this poem. 
I hope we'll talk later tonight.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2019

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December 28, 2019 at 3:56 AM
Deeply haunting poetry.
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