Tyesha Ehigiator Poet Free verse

What Did I Do?

I lay there dreary eyed
And congested

Suffering in pain
Drowning in silence

I sit there distinctively 
Wrapped inside my blanket

Watching the heater
Move slowly back and forth

I lay there only to feel, 
Feel the increased tension arise 
As the hours go by

Gently I move 
Toward the end of the bed

As he turned over and said
What time is it?

I replied
And suddenly I could hear all the anger in his voice

As he began to yell at me
My eyes started to water

The sea of tears
Swiftly turned into an ocean

I could see the enormous disappointment and
Increasing anger that approached his face

As if I was a thief
Who had stolen his wallet

I left the room
Escaped to my place of solitude

I took a shower
Only to stand there desiring the pressure of the water
Running down my back
To give me some relief, relief from what I'm feeling

I cried out loud, what did I do?
Time and time again
Only to hear his voice playing like a broken record
Over and over in my head
I stay there for awhile and then retrieve to my secret place 
The place I hide inside
And once again, this memory begins and I just pretend
That nothing ever happened.

I lay down to sleep, close my eyes and Delete
If only I knew. What did I do?...

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Sharon Winter March 6, 2009 at 4:45 AM There is no doubt in my mind it has anything to do with you. More his issues, whatever they may be. Believe this, he is probably not good enough for you anyway. I have bad memories too, and how I wish I could stop their replay. It is good you wrote it out. Concentrate on positive energy. It is healthier. An excelling write with deep emotions pouring out. Love, Shar

Raul Moreno March 5, 2009 at 9:03 PM The sea of tears Swiftly turned into an ocean! Wow, nice stanza. Great work...Raul

Michael Jordan March 5, 2009 at 7:43 PM Tyesha this well written poem has so much raw emotion just pouring off the page - Usually when we are left with a question like this stuck in our minds there is no answer because we did nothing wrong some folk can only feel good about themselves by putting others down - Instead of climbing up that ladder on their own they must step on someone else to make it - Its just human nature with some folk - God Bless you and your beautiful heart - YF4L, MJ

Laurie Ginn March 5, 2009 at 7:38 PM Oh shoot Ty this is so frustrating. The person in the poem just looking for a reason for insanity. There is no logic in abuse.