'we Did It'

No one lied, get it out of your mind Don't start badmouthing again, putting your foot in your mouth knocking your teeth around You saw the warning signs, you are not a rodeo clown This isn't new to you this happened before, it was bound to happen Without struggle, there can't be progress This anticipation is making you scared, hyper aware ignore your body signs to run, you hold it in until you're done breathe a sigh of relief at the finish line It'll come in time, stop holding your breath frustration release You knew it was all too easy how 30 mins of your time was all took to get a straight answer now you're crumbling here in near grief 40 mins is a bit excessive and unprofessional, yes but just sit tight don't run, don't you dare You've been through too much to just walk out the door You just gave a pep talk to the world or at least to your readers now you're here banging your head on the walls your fingers tapping away at your keyboard waiting for your name to be called with baited breath This has happened before, this happened before don't forget it This has happened before, don't you dare quit Look me straight in the eyes and tell me you get it look me straight in the eyes and tell me you'll beat this This is nothing Stop hoping someone else will come through and save you no one can save you but well me… see your reflection there? I am you and look what happened? You did it… We did it… I did it… I DID IT!!!!! … Is it wrong for me to be proud of myself Is it wrong for me to look forward to the future plan my own outcomes Is it wrong for me to celebrate, celebrate this win this win I've achieved Is it wrong? Am I wrong? I fear I am never nor ever feel like I belong let's see if I belong here My physical ability says no but I'll toughen it out anyway I need this God, help me, I need this Mother, keep me strong I need this I just hope all my sore limbs don't fall off in the process