We Aren'T the Disorder

We aren’t broken because we are lazy or looking for an excuse to stop working. We aren’t hopeless because we are selfish or looking for ways of being the center of attention. We don’t want to die because we have a test on Monday or because we are giving up. We are broken because our minds are melting and we hate feeling like shards of glass. We are hopeless because no one ever tells us that these feeling are okay to have or are normal. We want to die because we see other people handling their lives and we are still drowning in our own doubt. We aren’t shallow, or weak, or selfish, or cowards. We are selfless, and strong, and caring, and so god damn done with feeling like the world has escaped us. So I’m sorry if it seems like I’m giving up, but in reality I’m trying to live one day at a time. We aren’t what you think. We are what you fear feeling. So please see me as a person and not a headcase, or as a freak, or as a disorder, because if you felt like us, I doubt you’d make it through.