Waste of Hope

life is filled with pain disease is eating at my brain sorrow is all I know each moment feels so slow still, I keep on going hiding my feelings by joking how can anyone understand unless they've seen it first hand? what right do you have to give me advice? what makes you think you're so wise? I'm the one who has to live this life I'm the one who faced decades of strife Let's see you try I give you a week before all you want is to die