Want everything firsthand

#Want_everything_first_hand Wanna be the first to know and hear her say" i think I'm pregnant " , wanna be the one to buy the pregnancy test , wait with her for the 15 minutes and watch as the one line give birth to the 2nd line, wanna hold her hand and say " we are in this together" Wanna be the first to notice the bump, starting to show, wanna be there when the moods and cravings kicks in, wanna love her even more when she'd be angry at me for no reason, when her body adjusts and rub her swelling legs, wanna be waken in the middle of the night to go and buy her juristic cravings Wanna see and feel my child moving and kicking, the tiny legs prints on her mothers belly, wanna listen and touch my child while still wrapped inside her mothers gold womb, wanna be there in labour, holding my wife's hand and when she can't bear the pain anymore, wanna kiss her of her forehead and say" you can do it for us" Wanna take turns to change diapers, warm the bottle, bath my child, wanna raise my child for me not how the media and the society dictates it should be, wanna make mistakes and learn from them, wanna be a father, not what and how religion and nature says it should be, wanna trim fatherhood to my own desire and make, wanna be the first, for it will be my first Wanna be the first to hear my child say their first word, wanna be there to witness their first step, their first tooth, first chuckle, wanna be what my child's eyes sees when they start to see, want them to know the taste of my fingers, know the sound of my voice and know that I chose to be there and will always be there, that I chose to be a father, their father Wanna drop my child at chrech in the mornings and fetch them in the afternoons, wanna see their first scribling, wanna be the fisrt to buy and fit them their first school uniform Wanna take them to meet my mom and siblings and both brothers and sisters rascals, wanna take them to grannies and grandfather's graves to introduce them, wanna take them to meet my father and his brothers, Want everything first hand, be a father, a friend, a confidante to my child, I want everything first hand #Poetic_ink