Waiting

Waiting Hoping Not in the traditional way Not in the way that sets the mind And the heart up for a fall I wait I hope For the unexpected good For the sweetest surprise For the seeming chaos That will sort itself out to the calm It's a flow Like a leaning back on your favorite chair Like the cool underside of a favourite pillow Like just letting it all go All the plans All the schemes All the strategies All the techniques All the estimations All the wheeling and dealing Could do with an expected good now A brief glance A slight smile A chat A conversation lasting hours A laugh A silence A flirt A compliment It is said that it is only when you give up your life That is the time that you receive it fully And so the paradox is Then maybe expect nothing And open the self to everything My body is tired tonight My mind is worn My heart is slightly troubled But I dare not sleep yet I have to get this out Whatever it is Had no idea what it would be when it started Still I have no idea what it will be when I am finished Built my fingers still move and press the keys Will my unexpected good come tomorrow? Or maybe the day after? I have no idea But I will be hoping I will be keeping a subtle lookout Time for sleep Time to slow the body, mind and spirit Maybe something good tomorrow, maybe a good I never expected. EA