Vacuity

Sinking deep and deeper still Feelings of weakness becoming my will In search of answers To questions I'm too afraid to ask I look to the future But can only see the past Such a strong connection Or so it once had seemed But you grew too impatient To let me catch up to speed Out of breath I stopped to rest And without even noticing You kept right on going Suddenly the abandoned I pined for you, my companion Satisfaction turned to sadness My hopes trampled and flattened I stayed here waiting for you to return I waited and waited And endlessly yearned Alone I sat in my place of repose Wondering where all the years continued to go I waited so long I became part of the scenery Blending into the background It's as if no one really sees me And as each eternal moment Fades into the next I long for you, I long for your love And sometimes I long for death It would have to be better than knowing You could so easily leave me behind Without even telling me you were going And giving me a chance to say goodbye