David William Breidenthal Poet Lyric

utteR dreaD feelinG

I’m a disappointment 
I’m full of discouragement
I feel the urge to cry sometimes
I have committed many sinful crimes

I feel afraid after all is said
And after all is done, I’m moving on
Even if I feel this utter dread
And after all, I really just want to wait till dawn

I’m feeling all alone again and it’s disheartening
I’m dealing with this uncanny sensations once more
It’s not appealing — I want to die alive..it’s quite frightening 
I’m stealing away the shamelessness from your lips of adoration to the core

I’m a disappointment 
I’m full of discouragement
I feel the urge to cry sometimes
I have committed many sinful crimes

I feel afraid after all is said
And after all is done, I’m moving on
Even if I feel this utter dread
And after all, I really just want to wait till dawn

I’m sorry I’m a letdown
I’m sorry I’m wearing this frown 
Up in this tranquil town
And the rowdiness inside is a full-blown pride others wear like a graceful gown

Rebellious rage reigns upon my  upsetful, uneventful and regretful mindset 

This precious pain is repeating in my mind like the disgraceful scenes I’ve seen 
Sorry if I’m being obscene and thinking the other side of the fence has grass that’s green
I need to get over myself and I need to let go and let give
I want to die and I don’t know why I no longer want to live

I’m a disappointment 
I’m full of discouragement
I feel the urge to cry sometimes
I have committed many sinful crimes

I feel afraid after all is said
And after all is done, I’m moving on
Even if I feel this utter dread
And after all, I really just want to wait till dawn

Pleased that you don’t see me
Succeeding a failure of insanity 
Diseased by hatred and envy
Breeding blasphemy and boredom of self-pity

Self-sabotaging once again
Where the hell have you been?
You’ve been shooting me looks of awful anger and frustration…what a distraction…
You’re acting like a seventeen year old brat on the phone with little interaction 

I’m a disappointment 
I’m full of discouragement
I feel the urge to cry sometimes
I have committed many sinful crimes

I feel afraid after all is said
And after all is done, I’m moving on
Even if I feel this utter dread
And after all, I really just want to wait till dawn

Tell me you love me and I’ll do a satisfying scream 
Pound me till I can’t take it anymore
Well, you sincerely destroyed my self-esteem 
Found you lost in the dust of forevermore

It’s the end of times it seems
As I try to piece together my broken dreams
Shattered and nothing else matters
I’m sorry my speech doesn’t flatter, but cause inner disasters

I’m a disappointment 
I’m full of discouragement
I feel the urge to cry sometimes
I have committed many sinful crimes

I feel afraid after all is said
And after all is done, I’m moving on
Even if I feel this utter dread
And after all, I really just want to wait till dawn

I’m conflicted by crimson craziness and confusion
You had your fun — took my sun away tonight, hon
I’m a misery mess of meandering uselessness 
Stop meddling with my sorrow and losing painstaking progress 

Bless you and break my sincerely shameful, silhouetted soul 
I dare you turn my anxious ugly into breathtaking beautiful as a whole
Please leave me behind
Leave me alone with my own mind
Let me die
You and I 
Were not meant to be
Let me be foolishly free

Because Your knowledge is far above me, the solemn poet
Your spirit is suave with serenity beyond the regret 
My past is too dark to handle
Wish I had a rope to strangle
All these thoughts of selfish ambition and the likes
And all these uncomfortable sentiments of hopeless hikes
Inside my cranium of numbness 
Inside my dumbfounded distress

I’m a disappointment 
I’m full of discouragement
I feel the urge to cry sometimes
I have committed many sinful crimes

I feel afraid after all is said
And after all is done, I’m moving on
Even if I feel this utter dread
And after all, I really just want to wait till dawn

Call me if you want
I need someone to hold me tightly tonight with all your might
Your voice — it haunts
Me in ways that make me want to keep fighting the good fight

Sorry, babe, but you caught me so off guard
You loved me so much, it hits so damn hard
I like to be a flirt, but I am not a love expert and such
It hurts me to lose comfort in your lack of touch 

Silly me…
The urge to cry a stream
Hear my plea
Or I’ll…extremely scream

I’m feeling all alone again and it’s disheartening
I’m dealing with this uncanny sensations once more
How I long for your kisses and hugs and touches of bliss
In this song, I belong in your arms of hopeful happiness

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