Used and Abused

I took the force of it again today A curled formed fist from powerful limb Planted on cheek in full fledged force Rendered with frustrated frenzy And me the punch bag I took the torrent of ugly words today Aimed just for me like poisonous arrows That infiltrate and destroy the soul And humiliate my tortured mind I took it all without a word I took the weight of unwanted lust today Upon my meagre violated body Forced against will to serve base needs Instilling hurt and sanguine pain Contaminated and used I bore the agony of excised pain today That went beyond the barrier of suffering Of no desire and mutilation Taken without assent and free will Now void of feeling and of worth I had to marry an old fat man today And take glib vows at tender age Lost now the age of child-like innocence No time to play, no time to feel free Just subjected and servile I carry the marks of abuse today Of contusion and mental confusion Of pain, depression and low self esteem Of humiliating indignity And permanent scar