Until Now

Sharp breath cuts through my diaphram I fail to breath, gasping for air... Emotional blood flows through my veins I get the desire to scream with pains My pulse rate suffocates me! Bitter lumps swells within my chest Im heaving with a load of pressure All I want is to cry at the top of my voice But my eyes are dry Within me I want to cry. I didnt know until now That Im choosing a wrong vow Allow me to bow before u And ask God for strength and guidance Because I alone wants to deny my heart desire Until now, I realised How much it hurt To completely cut ties with u The agony is the same that I had When I lost my only pet. Until now I realised that You became my closest companion Unfortunately time did not warn me The daily chat truely used to warm me Now ims falling in deep pit of melancholy. You are like a book that I just started reading Before I arrive in the next chapter, My heart is already bleeding! Until now, Im forced to close the book Yet I dont even know what the next chapter holds. The take off was intense, Unaware we accelerating in a weired sense The adrenalin escalated with great response Everything was mesmirising Until now... Yes I did not realise how much I care Until now... this is insanely rare Yes I know what im feeling But can't bring myself to utter the words Until now, I know what I want I made up my mind, Im coming back to claim that book And want to see the look on your face As I resume that chapter.. Until now I 'll read to the bitter apogee Lest you forget im an obscure writer, The only writter who writes what she forsees Until now, im being driven by the acrimony in me Until now i ll just be me. ByLeboGFaith Samson 25/09/18@11:23