Unheard Ordeal of a Half Widow

life has become a dirge, torn image, I’ve become alike silence has engulfed my life so, entangled in melancholy decade passed, as if a century I’ve gone through, with your memories, still waiting for you, vividly I remember those days, when you used to kiss my forehead you used to give me Eidi on every Eid perhaps I live on, by rejoicing those moments somebody take me to my love in an unending wait, I’m which has made me, a living corpse alike… since when you disappeared, never have I wore ornaments, never have I prettified myself as for you only, my beauty has life…. I become mute and aglossal whenever our child asks me about you without you, everything seems gloomy as if, flowers have lost their bloom wind is same, without breeze so are mounts, without serenity I see no change, in any motion of sun I feel no warmth, in any moment now and no harmony I’ve, without you my love no peace comes to my door did you forget your promise, of never leaving me alone!! how can you leave me?? our souls lived together!! have you forgotten that too?? always I pray for you, in twilights on the door, I always stare, for you may come, never my eyes blink, except quivering soul, I’ve nothing, not even tears also!! day & night, I go by mourning from every side, sleepless nights I always observe, since when you disappeared nightmares have surrounded me, you’re alive, in my heart come back, O’ my crown without you, irrelevant and aimless, my existence serves I hear no bird chirping I see every tree mourning after when you disappeared as if I had rendezvous with any calamity for you, I’ve renounced this world like every saint, now every stranger knows me as in search of you, I walk miles every day since when you disappeared!! insane I’ve become, for your single countenance so also I crave for our reunion I talk gibberish, I’m deranged, people comment about me what’s its reason? only you know O’ my confidant come back, O’ my love, where have you been!! O’ my moon of blissfulness my shrieks are calling you