Undoubted Deception

Now my doubts are clear The thing i fear have arrived Though my sadness is contented in a silent tear I just wonder how i might survive Now that my heart feels pain And mixed emotions i tried to contain The solution to this seems so faint What should i do when i meet split lanes? I am afraid to make any decisions Nor would i want to believe my perception Am i going to face any deception? That is my heart frequent question I, suddenly feel so small Hiding myself under my veil I ignore my heart frequent calls I get love to no avail I want to give him a chance But it seems that it will lead to deception He won't realize it until everything is done He won't realize that this girl is one in a million Let it be what it has to be Though i know my heart needs to be free I am hurt by the future i am supposed to see I regretted ignoring my heart recent pleas....