Understanding

'tis not the first that i have found but in my heart it does seem so. whereof can this be? it passes understanding for me to know. and yet i dwell upon the mystery confused and in bewilderment. yet must i contemplate all that is before me. but there is no logic or presentiment. so how should i travel on my quest, how best to proceed in my darkness? there is no choice but to forge ahead and hope that there no precipice lies. we are in the dark where enlightenment rarely falls. like a flash of lightning,an epiphany fleetingly shows and then it darkens into doubt and despair. oh god,light up my darkness. for where else can i turn in this bleak chaos?