Unable To Speak

Unable to speak 

A’ grip, my heart,
it feels the weakness
that comes of worried dreams

Endless thoughts paint abstract on this soul

Alone, is this how it shall be?
Watching the shadows play
in reverse of what is felt?

Gazing afar, this distance fades in the mist,
hides beyond the waters edge, glistens as hope,
yet merely a dream?

Sitting here I wonder,
these clouds of grey overhead,
do they speak my name in full syllables
or will the sun find me, waiting, 
wishing that I could say?

Words, drew me to you, but they fear release from my tongue

If I carve our initials in this wooden bench,
sturdy as it may be, 
would that brand me a fool?

If I gain the courage to shout my dreams, would you laugh?

Silence comes of this walkway, empty,
worn of the past and not knowing the future
of my desires

You have taken my voice
It rests within your hands, for it is yours

My pulse races, my palms sweat,
I want to tell you, yet…

I sit within this silence, 

unable to speak
Copyright © | Year Posted 2016

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December 19, 2016 at 6:25 AM
Been there, felt that, but didn't write a poem of this caliber! What an excellent job you did with that hollow feel, with all the ways we 'keep' our loved one with us, i.e., carving initials, feeling the weight of their missing, empowering them with power over our voice - so many ways, and so many phases to heal. This is the worst phase, the saddest, the most silent while pain is loud. I really like this write ... CayCay
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December 19, 2016 at 8:27 AM
Thank you so very much CayCay for your wonderful comment on my poem. That is pretty much it and I am thrilled you found my message in this one.
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December 16, 2016 at 1:06 PM
For someone who literally has problems speaking, this poem speaks to me :) It's so true, it's like words become something magical, like they have the power to make and break, to be made, to be broken. They have the power to paralyse your tongue and make you sweat, small....
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December 16, 2016 at 1:24 PM
Darren, thanks so much for your honest and open comment on my poem. I appreciate you taking the time to read and comment on my poem. Often, for those of us who have no trouble talking, saying something becomes difficult because of an inner fear of what will be heard or how will it be taken. Thanks again my friend.
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December 16, 2016 at 10:44 AM
I can so relate...the uncertainty consuming your thoughts...such a lovely verse...have a fantabulous weekend
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December 16, 2016 at 11:18 AM
Thanks so much Tim. I'm glad you liked this.
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December 16, 2016 at 10:03 AM
Hi Chris, You've pulled the reader into this melancholy dream very well. It's so sad and you could feel the uneasiness. It's like this character has a straight jacket around their voice. Why can't he speak? Who stolen his voice? I enjoyed this deep write. Well done. A without doubt seven:-) Alexis
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December 16, 2016 at 10:39 AM
Thanks so much for reading this one Alexis. What I was going for was, he wants so badly to tell her how he feels about her but is so nervous that she does not feel the same way, he is afraid to say anything. Something like that. : ) Thanks so much my friend.
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