Ultimate Sacrifice

I run from memories, stained in enough felony After a failed choreography to budge up new colony To annul life, yet live the same life pieces harmony Quick succession of bolding and evanesce jeopardy In confusion. Constantly nudged, freely flowing tears of sorrow Daily singing a dirge, hoping to let go and be free morrow I wanted to be a murderer but ended with a savior’s furrow It brought no good, for I doubled as accomplice, left to harrow In self-mutilation The ritual, so pricy, so costly, so sloshy Double-forward, triple backsteps in a life model meshy Seesawed between starvation on reality and biting on dangerous fleshy Until I realized danger to obsoletion, victim to splashy To extinction Then I took on the sacrifice, with I the suffice lamb Resounding echo of dead-self and alive in self-clump The scarlet liquid flowed, undoing my members ramp Anguishing to death, wishing for a comforting samp The sweetened bitterness I felt the life ooze much like a god obligate Turned into macabre character, freer of the obstinate Stealing, killing, destroying, but for good that I hop`d reiterate Then I stared in awful horror, to see the norm reinstate Still lied, lifeless former self How tell the dead from reborn? As the newborns are christened and adorn`d So did I christen and pamper the propon`d In prep to complete the ritual, seal the forlong`d With ultimate thrust Without empathy, in untraced rigor, fresh bogger Lenience had been my weakness, sympathy my divorced swagger To the core of former self did I nail the perpetual dagger Blade with the seven seals, seven oracles, one code stagger Code of self-trust The stage was laid for my final funeral rite Deeply admired the deceased, explicitly feigning right But for the newborn to thrive, the former had to brit Lowered six-feet deep, to never teleport, never victim rit Never! Never! I toasted and drank, to the lifetime achievement Sans knowledge of life, yet determined to life merriment To the cupful of my scarlet blood, my sacrament I gulped to resuscitate, regurgitating lies predicament Setting the seals ablaze! Search for the ex no more, for the seals glitter blinds Behold the newborn, his radiance and ambience binds The link is broken, so broken, perpetually in grinds Freedom at last, post-harrowing ritual, unlinked from hinds Affirmation of the code! I stood on dais of death, Took the oath allegiance to death, Delighted in life and death!