Tyrant Tears and Fears

Married for eleven years It began simply, with daily tears It wasn’t always bad Yet on most days I felt terribly sad The good times were great No indication of our eventual fate Together we spawn two children Early in life they knew the bail bondsman He began to own me, to assert his control Eerily I descend deeper into a hellhole We were together, I was alone So much fear, I keep my children near What to do, where to go Questions I pose but answers I don’t know I’m so afraid I realize, my trust I’ve mislaid I have no skills, I don’t work If I did, perhaps only a clerk He uses this against me, wryly offering a smirk I know I can change him I love him He tells me not to worry He tells me he’s sorry He is a tyrant I shed tears He plays upon my fears He dominates He controls He possesses He has stolen my voice Until the day he gave me no choice We stand, we argue Then my tormented face is finally kissed by his clenched fist Stunned, I stagger back Looking up, searching the sky, asking why Visible from heaven above I now see a new sort of love Loving myself will set me free As if struck by a lightening bolt His fist launches my revolt I know I must go Jess and Daniel, my helpless children My love for you I will forever show His assault is not my fault A way of thinking I must halt My children and I start anew, finding a new truth Self-reliance is our fount of youth Hands to my face, sobbing with no trace I will survive and I can thrive I have beaten the tyrant Overcome my fears Having shed far too many tears Dependent on no one I have prevailed Tyrant, tears and fears