Typical Man

I've been a typical man, pushed away the girl I cared about most Here I am, desperately trying to repair what's broke But it's never going to happen I just hope other guys will learn from my mistakes and not follow my actions You came into my life when I was extremely low My nightmares were apparent So I couldn't put my dreams on show Wanted to pull you close, but instead you got pushed away Wishing I could go back, I have so much to say Chantal, Yeah I'll put your name here This is a picture I really want to paint clear My mother never showed me any affection so I found it hard to trust females You only know half the story, but I want you to have the full details Depression had me so tight, when we first started speaking I couldn't admit to you that my heart wad bleeding Butterflies in my stomachs, when we spoke, but I couldn't handle it I was scared, when in reality I wanted you in my arms with candles lit Never felt this way about a girl before Never had my world secure So used to people giving up on me, that for once I wanted to be the winner But I've realised its not a game, and now every day has been the coldest winter We've spoke quite a bit since but now you've cut me off I know now this isn't just a loss It's the biggest loss I'm ever likely to have I never knew love could make someone feel this sad I hate the fact I realized I love you when its too late This is my whole heart, its more than words on a page I'm making myself numb, so nothing or no one can hurt me now I hope and believe one day we will work it out Not today or tomorrow, but one day i hope we can start again I promise I'll never hurt your heart again Everyday I wake with the regret knowing I messed this up But I hope that one day again I'll get your love I've been a typical man, pushed away the girl I cared about most Now you're gone and my heart is broke You're not coming back and that's something I know damn well I'm sincerely sorry and do truly love you Chantal