Turmoil

Am i clutching at cobwebs in the rain? 
Have i held on for too long?
Is this my very own Kubla khan conjured out of the depths of my faith? 
Or perhaps a promise born to be broken after so many years of solace?
So many questions in my head... No one to lean to like a grasping shoot
Nobody comprehends the makings of my world
Even as they utter the words i terribly long to hear


My only assuagement is to seek self assertion
Hoping that my thoughts are not of the workings of sinister intent
Yet i have to ask, have you ever felt trapped by your own decisions
Have you been torn to pieces knowing that which you must not undo
Fearing that one step in any direction will be the source of your disengagement
Yearning for a voice from above smiling down, saying "...i am well pleased"
Seeking in the spirit that very thing which you must unveil in isolation


The revelation dawns in intense clarity
My disclosure i will not unsheathe by mere contemplation
Certainly not in the arms of he who deems to dispossess me
For what else can he proffer if not words of incitement
So to fate i have recourse to leave the adjudication
Of a certainty to resolve the creation of companion, Cupid
While i remain here in my dark twisted world, the turmoil ever deepening.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Iloduba Jnr Avatar
July 6, 2009 at 2:09 PM
heavy message!however, it further pushes the reader far away from grasping your mind.moralistic verse by all means.i wish the words were a little softer and flowery..........certainly a deep punch.cheers!
Guzzi Avatar
May 27, 2009 at 5:17 PM
wow those are some BIG words and I am not unfamiliar with words..yet i want to say to you "what" do they discribe? What are you showing the reader? Bewilderment? You are one bright bulb yet communication is a two way street? Light & Love
Shango Avatar
May 27, 2009 at 8:58 AM
Good write ... I go to return and complete my read of your work. Love and peace
Cantu Avatar
May 25, 2009 at 1:32 PM
Indeed a twisting group of verses, the reader can actually feel how the words pull him/her down into confusion and the sensation of loss jojjjo good; thanks for the experience!!!
Smith-Johnsen Avatar
May 23, 2009 at 3:33 AM
Decisions can be difficult. Endure. God will bless you. You have written well and said many wise words in this poem. Love, Dane
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