Trust

So you said you want me to be the way I was when we first started, I haven't been able to change for the best but I'm trying my hardest. I promise I am but there's so many things going on in my head, and I'm so confused and I really can't get many things straight. Thre's so many things that I've done wrong, I'm so surprized that you're still not gone, and I'm thankful that you still feel it's love, What am I doing pushing you away when you're the only one I have? I should be trying my best to keep you happy and next to me, I know that sometimes you wish that sometime else I could be, But I'm me and I promise that now I've changed if you don't believe me soon you'll see, I changed just so you can giveme a smile and say that you're happy. For so long you had lost all of my trust, But I'm willing to trust you now because you're saying that I must, My trust is yours I hope we don't go back to the time where you had it lost.