Trade This All Away

I've realized I crave the spectacle of a chain of perfect days does a turn events like that even exist if possible, show me a list to prove your finding The lyrics I know have fallen upon deaf ears don't sing nor lecture me, I just won't listen nor pay attention my past is calling for me from states away and I must, a necessity, to answer with my arrival Don't stop me, I have no future here look at me! I'm miserable The desire to go back, don't mock it's more than that, it's a nagging longing I can't ignore Nothing feels the way it should everything changes like it should but it's premature, it's all premature don't question me Back home is where I belong this is not the life I planned for I'm stuck in a lifeless rut while my devices are taking my eyes as contraband I see nothing but darkness I would trade anything, everything to get out of here be where I want to be wear a smile not a mask not be this hollow shell Everything changes, not for the better just to a letter but I've realized there's one difference so far... Me...