Richard Lamoureux Poet Rhyme

Torn, Dedicated To Freddie Vassallo

I don't want to 
No I don't
Want to do it
Your way

Your way 
Or the highway
That's what
I hear you say
So I'll pack my bags
I'll soon be on my way

You tell me
You don't 
Mean it
"Please don't go away!"
If you do it my way
Perhaps then
I'll stay

You don't want to
No you don't 
Want to do it
My way
In the end 
I guess that's okay
You go that way
I'll go this way
We can choose
The games we play
I'll take my ball
You keep your bat
You keep this
I'll keep that
My mind feels skinny
I think yours is fat

It seems my mind
Has split in two
I was never me
I was always you
I can't leave
What will I do?
My options limited
Yet I have
Quite a few
Tell me
Tell me
What to do.


As I wrote this I thought of my friend Freddie who seemed in 
a constant battle with himself. The world is less without him
in the game. I will miss him.

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Vegter Papyrus October 25, 2019 at 9:05 AM It seems like the poets who became popular in the soup, came under attack. I've seen horrible rumors pinned on innocent good people. Thanks for visiting R. Richard Lamoureux October 25, 2019 at 9:16 AM I guess I have been able to escape both popularity and being attacked. I wrote this one for Freddie when he faked his death. I later predicted his resurrection. There were a number of vey angry poets at the time.

Judy Konos April 16, 2015 at 8:30 AM Well I am lost! He passed away? And now he is on facebook? hmmmm but your poetry was excellent...so thanks... Richard Lamoureux April 16, 2015 at 9:09 AM Yes a fake death and piles of accompanying drama. I am glad none the less that he is still among us.

Casarah Nance November 19, 2014 at 8:43 PM Well Richard, Freddie's battle is not over, have you seen his facebook post, he is still playing his games. He is a character even in his fallacy, one that always leaves us guessing. Richard Lamoureux November 21, 2014 at 9:46 AM I have been in contact with him, I hope he comes back to the soup.

Maurice Yvonne November 2, 2014 at 10:19 AM Troubled souls are often misunderstood, people tend to weigh one outburst heavier than ten acts of goodness. Excellent dedication Richard.

Leon Enriquez November 2, 2014 at 6:02 AM Dear Richard: Lovely write my friend. Yes, I got to know about Freddie's passing from a visit to Jan Allison's page. Alas, life is truly fragile. Keep in touch as you take a break from PoetrySoup to follow-up on your personal pursuits. All the best then, Leon.

Verlena S. Walker October 31, 2014 at 12:33 PM Beautifully written Richard. Verlena

Liam Mcdaid October 31, 2014 at 1:41 AM heart touching deeply God rest his soul beautifully penned richard bless you Richard Lamoureux October 31, 2014 at 8:33 AM That is my hope as well Liam.

Timothy Hicks October 30, 2014 at 11:44 PM I come back to the Soup and two truly wonderful people pass - first Lucilla Carrillo and now Alfred Vassalo :( You penned a powerful poem about inner conflict and self doubt. I'm just sorry for the inspiration behind it... Richard Lamoureux October 31, 2014 at 8:33 AM Each of them held a special place in my heart.

Charmaine Chircop October 29, 2014 at 5:22 PM Richard,I am going to miss Alfred.Still remember his first day on ps,and am sure I llnever forget his last.He was. very honest and loyal to anything He is passionate about;including poetry.I admired his guts of speaking up without being scared of what anyone might think Humble enough to recognize his flaws like We all have,and He was a generous friend too.Darn I ll miss the guy.Guess He s watching us from heaven smiling. with angels.To my favs Richard Lamoureux October 31, 2014 at 8:31 AM Freddie was a true original, I too will miss him.

Casarah Nance October 28, 2014 at 9:43 PM This does choke me up a bit, I didn't know Freddie all that well, compared to some on here, Oh but he got me writing harder, and writing with pride in what I put on paper. His character was a character and we need people like that in ours lives that make us question, and work, and think. He will be missed. Thank you for sharing this poem with us. Richard Lamoureux October 29, 2014 at 8:15 AM He was one of the poets I would look forward to hearing from. He was selective as to which poems he would post on. He would not comment on your work unless he felt you had talent. So you my dear certainly qualified.

Leo Larry Amadore October 28, 2014 at 6:36 PM Well done...conveys well internal quandary; I liked it. Richard Lamoureux October 29, 2014 at 8:15 AM Thanks Leo.

Charlotte Puddifoot October 28, 2014 at 6:01 PM this is very sad news, I had no idea he'd passed away...yes, he was a controversial character all right, and certainly wasn't afraid to speak his mind! I never minded what he said, though, and I'm sad to hear he's gone, really sad, but it's nice that you wrote this with him in mind Richard Lamoureux October 29, 2014 at 8:17 AM Thanks Charlotte, I will miss my conversations with him.

Paul Callus October 28, 2014 at 11:45 AM Freddie was a straight forward person who spoke his mind...not to hurt, but to present a clear picture of how he saw things. These past few months his attitude to life and religion became more mellow, and his relationship with his creator became closer. I pointed this out to him. The books I received from him a couple of days before he died will always be his living memory. Richard Lamoureux October 29, 2014 at 8:20 AM Thanks Paul, it is good you had those conversations with him. I too will cherish his books.

Brenda Meier-Hans October 28, 2014 at 11:06 AM I hope he has the peace he could not find on earth. Wonderful that you wrote this as a tribute to him Richard. I wonder if it will be raining at his funeral. (Something he mentioned lately in a poem.) Richard Lamoureux October 29, 2014 at 8:23 AM That is an errie thought. I too hope he is at peace.

Dr. Upma A. Sharma October 28, 2014 at 10:38 AM Glad to see that addition of his ne in the title Richard! Jan has given me a shock by her prompt response! I m deeply saddened to hear that! Wonder why did I not realise that he wasn't posting poems of late! Wonderful tribute u hv given to him! Surely we all will miss him! Trust the soul rests in peace! God bless ! Richard Lamoureux October 29, 2014 at 8:26 AM Thanks Upma, God bless you as well.

Eileen Manassian October 28, 2014 at 9:11 AM I'm sorry to know he passed away. So sad. I hope he died with peace in his heart. Your poem is amazing in many ways. I see myself in this constant quandary. Thanks for sharing. Richard Lamoureux October 28, 2014 at 9:48 AM Thanks, I think that this duality exists within all of us. I believe that it was more pronounced with our friend Freddie. That is one of the reasons he was a talented writer. There were things he did and said that I disagreed with and still we remained friends. His directness for me was his most endearing trait. He seemed to enjoy controversy. I will miss him.

Demetrios Trifiatis October 28, 2014 at 8:53 AM Very sentimental and touching! Dilemmas exist always for we create them But if friendship or love is there we easily may come out of our dilemmas, Excellent piece of writing, dear Richard! Richard Lamoureux October 28, 2014 at 9:49 AM So true!

Anne-Lise Andresen October 28, 2014 at 8:49 AM - A well written poem, Richard ! - Rest in peace Freddie - (I did not know he was dead) - // Anne-Lise Richard Lamoureux October 28, 2014 at 9:51 AM I was shocked and saddened to learn of his passing. I found ou yesterday.

Jan Allison October 28, 2014 at 8:39 AM I'm sure Freddie will be looking down and agreeing with your every word Richard. I had 3 e mails from Freddie on 24th October - he was so positive and had just sent his latest book to the printers and was offering me help should I want to do the same in the future - I will miss him - RIP Freddie:-( Hugs Jan xx Jan Allison October 28, 2014 at 10:06 AM LOL I have 3 books he sent me recently the last one he signed for me - what an incredible life he lived - I learn more and more about his struggles with every read:-( hugs Jan xx Richard Lamoureux October 28, 2014 at 9:52 AM If he agreed with every word he would not be Freddie *lol*. I will miss him too, hugs back to you.

Dr. Upma A. Sharma October 28, 2014 at 8:22 AM nice write Richard! Where is Freddie? Is he sick ? Kindly apprise ! Jan Allison October 28, 2014 at 10:20 AM lol Richard well hes got a 'with sympathy' card he can read from me then LOL!!! Hugs jan xxx Richard Lamoureux October 28, 2014 at 9:58 AM Part of me hopes that this is a charade and Freddie is trying to get a reaction from us. I would not put that past him *lol*. I watched a utube video he did about a week ago and it seemed really sad. I sincerely hope he has found peace. Jan Allison October 28, 2014 at 8:36 AM he sadly passed away recently Dr Sharma:-( Hugs jan xx