Today God Asked

do you love her?
cant you see it in my tearfull eyes
and when i am angry
what hurts me inside
what are my worries 
and why do i cry
why cant i just forget the things
i want to hide from my pride
what are these prayers
while walking and wondering
why do i suffer 
from yearning and longing
as if grief is not enough

why is it that i refuse 
to be comforted by anyone else
why do i feel so sorry for myself
no one seems to know my pain
nor does the one i love
when my voice should make it so plain
it doesn't have a choice
it can feel her name
is it a greater sin to covet
what i wish i had
and is blaming God, all together bad
why am i constantly reminded
that it is time to let go
yet hoping, always for an open door
and while i suffer all these pains
i never know if they are for loss or gain
when or if they will ever end
or do they just come again and again
do i love her?!!!
Copyright © | Year Posted 2010

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Loving Iii Avatar
April 2, 2012 at 2:04 PM
i still do.
Arnott Avatar
January 21, 2011 at 10:30 AM
can feel how u feel n ur poems, like b n ones soul, u feel helpless, u wanna help, but im just human too, i feel so sad cause i soo wanna help and heal u
Dufresne Avatar
September 21, 2010 at 6:57 PM
Thinking and hurting, feeling and wondering. Your write shows it all John. Thanks for your comment
Roberts Avatar
September 21, 2010 at 2:42 PM
awesome write John, thank you for sharing
La France Avatar
September 20, 2010 at 3:57 PM
"yet hoping, always for an open door" that says it all, John~~ it is hard to let go, I think each one of us has been there~~ thank you so much for commenting on my poetry~~
Devonshire Avatar
September 20, 2010 at 2:56 PM
These are rough times for you, John. Please accept comfort from others when you feel this way; I always accept it from you and you know I'm always here to listen. It is not a sin to love, John. I believe God wants us to know and find love in our lives -- that's why He created us. Hope you are feeling better now. I've been out of town for a while. Sorry I missed this earlier. Love, Carolyn
Culverhouse Avatar
September 20, 2010 at 2:39 PM
Philtrum is the space above the upper lip that connects to the nose. the little groove.
Sweetheart Avatar
September 20, 2010 at 2:05 PM
Oh John thankxxx for your comment on my "Born TOO Late" a true story ... it was an innocent romance.. but so loving... and love could never be against the law ..luv..
Kendrick Avatar
September 20, 2010 at 1:06 PM
I get the feeling that you have loss someone special to you and you have fresh wounds that are healing..I am sorry for your loss and hope that healing comes soon and a door will open for opportunities to meet that person who will be loved with this love of which you write in this poem...Thanks for stopping by and commenting on my memories from so long ago..Sara
Babcock Avatar
September 19, 2010 at 10:49 AM
At times all our hearts suffer and we question why. You are never alone for He walks beside you and will guide you. Where one door closes another will open. Hugs to you my friend as it looks like you need one. God Bless Phyl
Jenkins Avatar
September 18, 2010 at 6:34 PM
This poem is touching in a way. It makes since. Very nice write. -taylor
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