Today

The creative course of love runs through the veins
By God, it has enveloped my very life in faint luster
It is now an illusion I have mastered and made real
There will be no lies written on my depleting heart
For Doubt was there masked inside the vibrant ball
All told her it was to be a masquerade, and she fell
Yes! Doubt fell into an illusion of trust and feral light
She locked herself away for good that doleful night    
While all danced and were joyous in lore and drink
Doubt turned her head to the door of blissful night 
And she never looked back; not for a slight moment

Furtively their love grew as vines entwining sea green
Ballets flared inside menace and ghoulish, garish glee
Lonely larks will always sing as far as the eye can see
But Doubt in its dark sings beyond what is you or me
I am in love with her; she is life and something new
And I cringe to speak the truth; oh clandestine mind!   
Yes, it was I who had invited Doubt to the vibrant ball
And it was there, without notice, she fell in my arms
In an unforgiving, comatose faint—a revolutionary state
Her face to the door, bleeding black and nothing more
The last moment I stared into her bleak, pale features

Doubt's masquerade I had mastered had at last begun!
The crowd swelling all around me, all in dark costume
Oh, God knew it was only a guiltless, simple gathering
But here they remained—the DEMONS ever smothering
The faces were cruel and their camouflage unforgiving
Doubt had now left me writhing, splitting, crying—LIVING 
As crowds danced around my uncovered, sniveling face
The spineless love of my life gone now without a trace
There no drink to drown away the ever-placed sorrow
There no high hopes of inevitable, hopeful tomorrow
There is only today—and today I cruelly, drolly LOVE
Copyright © | Year Posted 2013

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Kilmer Avatar
August 9, 2013 at 8:38 PM
Today, the moment that we are all suppose to live in. Doubt. Confidence. Demons. A curse upon us all. Kindred spirits I think we are, but maybe I give myself to much credit. This is manically up lifting. Kilmer
Beaufort Avatar
July 21, 2013 at 9:36 AM
The human condition is not so easy to deal with. Since I am an evolutionist, I just chalk it up to the fact that we are animals, after all. Emotions are complex, and I try to make tomorrow better. Real honesty in a relationship is very rare. Acceptance of the truth is very difficult for all of us. In a way this realization makes our lives better because I suspect you could be very accepting and not threatened. You are way ahead of the pack--it could be isolating.
A   Avatar
July 19, 2013 at 8:47 PM
Today, sounds good for me.. today... will be one solid thought for.. I have someone who drolly is worth the loving... enjoyed...LINDA
Breidenthal Avatar
July 19, 2013 at 9:06 PM
Don't be caught in that delusional masquerade, PD. It's hard to be the only one that is not wearing a mask.. You are such a raw, passionate poet. You deserve so much more than merely 'droll' love. With respect, ~Laura
Andresen Avatar
July 19, 2013 at 4:38 PM
- It is deep and written with emotion Laura. - Wishing you a great weekend. - oxox / / Anne-Lise :)
Breidenthal Avatar
July 19, 2013 at 9:03 PM
Anne! Thanks! You're sweet. ~Laura
Tacito Avatar
July 19, 2013 at 7:49 AM
Despite the pain, live for today. Very dark, yet powerful ending.
Breidenthal Avatar
July 19, 2013 at 9:03 PM
Thanks Drake. This was supposed to be a romance, but I don't know where my mind took me!! ~Laura
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