To the Girl That Disappeared

wouldn't have cared if it wasn't for the way you disappeared or when you disappeared or even who you were to me you were my sister you disappeared due to getting in a car accident at 2 o'clock in the morning boy what a way to wake up the day before your birthday December 31st of 2015 is one day i will never forget waking up to my mom screaming like she was getting raped to walking into the kitchen to three police officers my mom screaming bloody murder in my dads arms and my grandmother standing there telling what happened me wanting to just be by myself but having a caring grandmother and father they didn't let me be alone that day or that night the thoughts and endless nightmares i had and continue to have or the tearful nights i cry myself to sleep because i am thinking of a way i could have saved you or my last words to you just kill me just the thought that your just gone or the night i had so much anger and sadness built up it drove me to take a thumb tack off my wall and dig it into my skin just because the thought of you being gone kills me but luckily i asked for help.