Derek Chos Poet Free verse

To Raise a Sinking Ship

But there was truth behind her statement, correct?
How the words become a shield and a sword
And here they stand before you again
To convey their message

Thrice before they were attempts to mend
Once before it was to sever
And as I type this in the dark, alone with only my thoughts
What could it possibly be this time?

For I don’t even know this time
Your complaints were valid
And instead of attempting to fix what was so obviously broken
I ran and hid, proving my supreme cowardice

I was once informed the last time was the last time
You were right to state that
So would begging for you to return to me
Be a foolhardy venture?

I would have to say yes.

So as I lie here typing my message
The one I so desperately hope you give the time of day
Or night, in one point of view
I have this to say

I do not expect you to return
Nor shall I beg
I offer it only in hypotheticals 
And this isn’t what this is about


I couldn’t stand it if you hated me
For I could never hate you
I doubt I could ever even dislike you
And here I cling to the message I’m trying to get away from

I offer this to you
In hopes that I may avoid your hatred
I’d hate to end our legacy on the bad note we did
I’d hate to end our legacy at all

But that isn’t what this is about.

But what can I say but I was a fool
I offer my deepest,
And most sincere,
Apologies

But I know that isn’t enough.

But what is enough?
I ramble on and on and on across these words
So allow me to end these words
With a few more

If I could go back in time, I would.
If I could fix those mistakes, I would.
But the concerns may have come too late.
And here I cling.

The remorseful fool that I am.

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Roxanna Johnson July 21, 2011 at 3:05 PM sounds too me like there is a lot of regret in this poem but with every negative experience we face in life we grow a little stronger. Great write and best wishes for you in the future.. Love, Roxy.