To my long lost friend

A, I did not have time to talk to you about my ill fate. It seems nice but I think it is a curse for me this year. It has been 5 years since you were gone, Although I do not feel missing you as I used to, But it did not mean I love you any less. I am upset that I did not love you as much as I should. I suppose, one only learns how much one was lucky until one lost it. I took for granted you would always love me And I would be loved and cared forever. Would you bless me to have wisdom, Energy, time and love for my sons. Whom you also loved as your grand children. Even when you never have a chance to meet them. I was grateful for your kindness, respect and Treated me differently to the rest of the women in your life.