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To Love Is To Stay Away

Is it really such a surprise
That I choose to be alone?
Rather that than to hurt more people
Because I am so easily hurt.

Is it really such a big deal?
I'm fine with it.
Alone does not equal lonely
It's time I put myself first.

I ran from one man to the next
Needing the validation,
Pain was all I really got
And nothing quenched that thirst.

I realize now I needed love
But not from anyone else
I was a hollow person
Always bound to hurt.

The pain of the past forever with me
The loss of my baby always felt in my heart
That taught me what a lie it is
That you can live until you love you first.

I love that baby with all my heart
I think I probably always will
But death and pain are all around me
I'll never bring anything but the worst.

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Timothy Hicks Date: 5/18/2016 12:00:00 AM I can definitely relate to your first two stanzas ... "alone does not mean lonely" ... people often forget that. I felt your sincerity in this piece ... letting it all out there. I hope you find that lucky someone that's just perfect for you ... an engaging bio. Login to Reply Janet Runyan Date: 5/18/2016 1:37:00 AM Thank you. I'm sorry you can relate to it though I suppose anyone whose been in love and hasn't had it work out might be able to relate to some part of this one. I don't know. But thanks for taking the time to read this. I truly appreciate it

Demetrios Trifiatis Date: 4/22/2016 6:58:00 AM My dearest, Janet, the one who admits that brings the worst to others certainly is a person with a tender heart that waits to be loved for all those beautiful things that are to be found in the depth of your soul! To love is an art that needs no special effort! When it comes we just know it because it heals all painful scars of the past. The most difficult part of life is to accept it! I am certain a lucky gentleman will soon hold you in his arms. A beautiful honest poem! A seven! Hugs Login to Reply Janet Runyan Date: 4/22/2016 7:22:00 AM Ooh thank you! I feel like you totally understood this one. Thank you so much for taking the time to read it and thank you for putting some hope back into my life. You are a great man, truly

Poet Destroyer A Date: 4/22/2016 12:24:00 AM wow, Janet, that's not fair, to even think.. you only bring the worst... You have a tough spirit in accepting what you feel is your worst... you did well on the bio... LINDA Login to Reply Janet Runyan Date: 4/22/2016 1:54:00 AM Thank you so much for taking the time to read this. I write when I'm feeling my worst and I don't fall in love as easily as men fall for me and I really do end up hurting a lot of them in the end. I try to let the know that I have trust issues and it's harder for me but I get down sometimes and feel I'm only causing pain. Thank you for your comment. That was so kind of you