Times Have Changed
There was a time when any thoughts with consequent emotions occupied me
Conversing was a breeze!
Writing about anything was far from difficult
Today, I spend moment after moment evaluating and reevaluating when it comes to writing
I enjoyed speaking
I enjoyed people
Today, I diligently search and gather whatever speck of opinion I have toward anything
“This” is how I feel but why?
How do I even feel?
What happened?
What do I want?
I just want to be okay…
I want to enjoy people and not be afraid to say “too much” –
Whatever that is
I’m cautious of what I say and do because I’m sensitive emotionally
I say little and do little
Today, I have less mean-spirited confrontations
My kindness and generosity is still the same
When people laugh, I don’t laugh
Should I?
When people have open-talk I’m hesitant to share because I fear people will misjudge me by my words
And disregard Me
What do I do about this?
IT IS NOT as simple as, “it doesn’t matter what people think”
Because I KNOW that “it” does
Copyright © Justcallme Britt | Year Posted 2013
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