Thoughts That Won'T Go Away

In retrospect you can never
make sense as to why it happens.
A minute late sets a sequence loose
towards some catastrophic event,
or if you miss a step taken to complete
a simple task, you'll begin
to fall apart. So much
seems to pivot on the perfect
execution of such trite things.
Nothing is exempt.

And then there is the countless
tributaries drawn to represent 
each critical point along
the course of a single life,
or worse, the universe with its
almost infinite intersects of chance
webbed across time and space
back to its beginning. All appear
to be intricately linked, wired
into the locked rulebook
of a sinister, cosmic game.

Such thoughts overwhelm
and paralyze the brain.
Each movement made,
each calibrated ritual
bring into question just what's 
at stake, what harm will be
unleashed if you get it wrong.
This is replayed again
and again as if to multiply the sum.
In the prison
of your regimented days,
you keep counting minutiae 
and the spinning chamber
of an imaginary gun.
You just want a reset to zero.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2022

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Lever Avatar
September 12, 2022 at 4:31 PM
Powerful, significant and in and with clever chaos. I love this poem. well done. much love and respect.xx
Willason Avatar
September 12, 2022 at 5:06 PM
Thanks Janine. I was hesitant in putting this poem up, OCD is not a subject most poets explore. I have a family member with this condition. In the end I felt it important for others to glimpse the internal lanscape of those suffering OCD...to solicit compassion and perhaps for some, find a resonance, a subliminal message to seek professional help, you're not alone. Kind regards, Paul
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