This Undying Wish

I wish I could understand why he cannot not weep Every minute, every hour, every single day. Then maybe I could finally get some sleep. Life might be a slippery slope. But not so steep One would be forced to look away. I wish I could understand why he cannot not weep. Does he now remember all the promises he did not keep? If only he would stop apologizing today, Then maybe I could finally get some sleep. Dear Lord, the most merciful, let him not sink too deep. Though I only have these words to pray, I wish I could understand why he cannot not weep. I hope one day some consciousness would seep Or he would run out of guilt to pay. Then maybe I could finally get some sleep. Will he stop such an act so juvenile and cheap? Did he not know I could not forever stay? I wish I could understand why he cannot not weep. Then maybe I could finally get some sleep.