This is my voice 8 years on testosterone

Update: I unalived my name 
              to spite its face
              and steal its frame

Update: I came out to my mother 
              smothering a cookie in hand
              left covered in crumbs
              by the conversation’s end

Update: I got my first chin hair 
              and I took twenty-seven pictures of it 
              at different angles.

Update: the only thing I own entirely is my body
              my taxes fund war overseas
              while unable to raise resolutions
              for my internal revolt.

Update: I constantly crop this body 
              so it fits other people’s picture
              my voice reduced to whispers

Update: I dream of slicing open my pectorals
              just to let my spirit experience
              freedom’s rush of fresh air

Update: day by day, the reflection that’s fed to me
              is finally feeling familiar
              my entire life, I’ve been trying to find myself
              beyond a body I did not belong in 

Update: I do not owe the world masculinity nor femininity 

Update: for once, I hear my voice when I speak. 
              For too long, I’ve let silence 
             decimate me by the decibel.
             my voice box unleashes 
             no evil, my people 
             only growl louder amid adversity

Update:  My goal is to be as obsessed with myself 
              as politicians think I am
              loud, proud, annoyingly boisterous
              my voice is a gift I gave myself     
              and for as long as I breathe I will speak
              on my becoming.

Update: pride is my protest
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