This-

This feeling, this torturous feeling
Will not and somehow cannot go away,
I hate it, I hate it,
I do not hate much but I do hate this,
This tension, this agony, this stress
I picture a great deep colored brick wall being broken,
Shattered, falling to pieces,
And piece by piece I see all my troubles go away,
But then- I see my face,
The anger, the hatred I have with my expression,
My eyes filled with fire, filled with a wanting to be signed off from life,

I want to be stuck in my fantasy where-
I am laying in a grass field, Everything so open,
I can feel the slightly green, yellow grass in between my toes
And my hands grasping the grass with my arms and legs brushing against the brittle but oh
so gentle grass,
All around are hills and hills, filled with bundles of wild and free flowers of all
different shades and tints,
The sun gazing, beaming down upon me,
I can feel the soft warm raze soaking into my relaxed porcelain body,
Then, you feel a slight warm breeze gently coming through just to 
Bring the scent of crisp roses along and under my nose,
I take it all in,-
The sensation of being there is equal and beyond equal
To the gorgeously amazing feeling of rain,
Dancing in the rain
I am just there, not a soul around
But I do not feel alone,
I feel the comfort and the warmth,
Of everything surrounding.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Vasquez Avatar
December 25, 2012 at 10:00 PM
"This" stirs so much imagery in the mind's eye. Great job
Thekidster Avatar
January 9, 2010 at 1:24 AM
"This" is bliss. Great work Amanda. Best Wishes Always, Bill
Kelly Avatar
August 27, 2009 at 1:19 PM
Amanda , this " this " , is a well written piece . When you can compose like this "this " , you will always be free to feel the warmth and comfort of your surroundings .... Yeah !! write onnnnnnn ...
Knop Avatar
August 27, 2009 at 5:00 AM
Isn't it wonderful to be part of nature and to feel so? Well written, Amanda and thanks for your comment. Gert
Brown Avatar
August 25, 2009 at 6:30 AM
Amanda, thank you for sharing yourself with us in your poetry today. Awesome writing. Love, Carol
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