These Two Dark Emotions

The one that has not succeeded in life knows that these two dark emotions: fear and pity are on the same scale of equality; he feels its lows and takes blows! I compare myself to him in many ways, and unable to escape from the loneliness inside and around me: the only comfort is prayers, gazing deeper into Heaven and beg for painless days! When all is bleak and clouds collide to strike me with lightining, I hide where it's dry and safe; but there's no ending to fear by being a ghostlike and not run on hills with excitement to fly a kite! Pity also hinders me from achieving the fullest joy, I blame it all on myself, not on the causer of grief; losing fear is a form of purification to get some relief... troubled soul, let these two dark emotions become memory! Written on 6/1/2017