These Thoughts

Living with it would be better If I didn’t feel trapped behind this wool knit sweater I try to face the facts and see Life isn’t always what it’s cracked up to be I look at the bigger picture and realize I will never be what others see in their eyes Standing up and pronouncing my name Just won’t be the same When I’m gone What a world it will be without me Trying so hard to believe That miracles make a difference to those Who go out and prove persistence shows I sit alone and watch my words As I type a text that seems absurd “I’m doing okay” Though my eyes turning grey What a world it would be To have not known me When I’m gone These letters I look at Don’t seem to attack The slightest bit of doubt I feel roaming about These streets seem to turn As I walk alone and burn In this tiny little head That just won’t let me get to bed I scream and I shout But people just walk about I can’t tell them how I feel But they will understand when they kneel How much my head made me bleed How much time I spent alone in need When I’m gone