The Unholy One

Rays of the sun reflected my sinful image on a blood river
got every wrongful part of me to quarrel and shiver
happiness is what i sought, remorse is for givers
every natural-colored spot ON my heart turned silver

Inspiration was my fantasy, clouds were my sky
death scares me,yet i desire it, desire to die
was it shame? shame that i see with blinded eyes
never saw glittered water, ON the surface of the sun they hide

What did i do so wrong?! for God to choose me a sinner
the horizon line infront of my dead soul's corpse got thinner
even the power of nature couldn't uncast HIS deadly glamour
my wish in life was to win yet i lost,never been a winner

Life has tightened its strains on that poor heart of mine
Did I? did i indeed have a heart? to feel how LOVE could be so divine
but yet , all my sins were purified, by the scene of the horizon line
taught me that at times, forgiveness , was the crime of all crimes

Grandeur i did not seek, i realized, it was only a fake wish
a gesture to my undecided inner-self,with hidden pureness so rich
recently knew how heart pain was nothing like a normal stitch
If Jesus Christ u believed, then how could you my other cheek ditch?

For if you felt it at its peak, you would have utterly known
that DEATH was your close friend, and I pushed him away to the unknown
you wouldn't have given me those looks, those ocean-roars,those frowns
if only you knew how much i begged the clouds , "thee not ,at her, throw stones"

then you would have saved my soul , saved our sacred vow , saw our blond sons
shared the feeling of bliss and GRANDEUR with your love, the unholy one !!




My source of inspiration (L)
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Maughan Avatar
April 19, 2009 at 7:57 AM
Desiring death?? wow..GOD choose us ALL to be sinners..you are not alone on this one.. Foregiveness is NOT the silent killer.. Hugs and forever peace Robin
Shango Avatar
April 6, 2009 at 8:39 AM
Deep in the cave of your words rumble guilt, betrayal and longing. Forgiveness heals, and beg for no understanding other than the will to forgive. Peace forever, my friend.
Shahwan Avatar
April 6, 2009 at 8:31 AM
Forgiveness after all...May I suggest you read the new testament one more time...Nothing survives over the clouds; but need to meditate and close your eyes to see the treasure living inside your heart; saints were pelt in old days- not criminals.
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