The Thoughts That Wake You

Do you know what it's like to scream so silently at night as your chest caves in and your gut pulls into itself. A pressure rises and rises in your chest bursts past your lungs and up your throat and your jaw trembles as it tears open, but other pressure tries to close it. But then, no sound comes out. Agony is silent as she screams. Like the sobs you hide in your pillow and the tears that stream so silently down your cheeks, and the shaking in your body is the only betrayer that you are awake. But it is night, you are under the covers they're hiding you and the sorrow smothered by silence. Do you know what it is like to scream without a sound?