The Spitting Image of Me

The Spitting Image of Me I look like a perfect girl But once you look under the clothes All you see are scars I have my imperfections I have my flaws Stretch marks Scars But underneath all of that… I’m the same as you That is as a physical form When you enter my mind You enter a place that no one should be You enter a mind of an insane person A person who constantly thinks of killing Who can see things others can’t You enter a place so dark… Not even God’s light can touch You enter a place of madness A place of… Death A place where it's kill or be killed A mind that is constantly fighting itself to stay alive A mind that wants nothing more than to die But as well as dies to live You see certain things no one should A victim of rape A victim of abuse A victim of attempted suicide A victim to her own mind You see how messed up the mind of this person is You now understand what it's like to be insane To sit there and want to disappear You know that the more you think The worse it gets The depression So dark So painful All you see is black because that's all they want to see When you see the mind of someone truly depressed… You see them standing Just standing there Looking up Wanting to leave To be gone They see you breathe While they struggle to even move They can barely breathe under the pressure of the hurt Under the pain Then the bipolar comes in One minute they could smile for day Laugh Fun to be around Then… They snap They get mean They threaten you They look at you like you are the prey Then the sadness comes Bipolar sadness is bad But add depression into the mix… You created a person who just wants to let go Seeing things that aren't there It makes you panic Hearing things others can't hear… Makes you go insane Knowing that one day you may snap It may happen tomorrow Or in a few years Or never But the minute you snap… There is no going back All you want is blood To do to others… What they have done to you Hurt them In every way possible To show them true fear Fear That will never leave them Fear… Of insanity Fear… That they too will snap And when they do snap Run!