The Shadows Beneath the Stairs

For The Love Of Poetry Contest
Sponsor: John Lawless

The shadows beneath the stairs is what I believed to be my hell. 
There I was, countless nights, too injured to show my
true face. If only I had been loved instead of being damaged.
I sat there. I cried there. I mourned there. I died there.

Lost in maltreatment I thought I could survive that last time.
Broken and made imperfect from his morose doom. How could he think 
he would get away with ending his wife’s life? I was born innocent
and I died dirty. Filthy essence of guilt and fear. I dreaded 
when the work day was over. I dreaded making the kids hide
in the corner. Now my sweet children are suffering
without a nurturing mother to comfort them the way
they need and deserve. Oh, the revile that scorched me
morning after morning and night after night.
I was ashamed while he was proud…. 
I was repentant while he was around…
Disconnected a connection for the pleasure of my pain.
Here I am, above the clouds overseeing the actions
of a monster who decimated his supposed soul mate. 
My blood was shed while he stood there
haughty and content with the outcome. I thought I loved him
like roses, and needed him like breath. He hated me like
like an inferno and he needed me like pleasurable torment.
If only I could’ve seen the truth behind the destruction
maybe I would’ve survived this tragedy. But no matter what
I am protected now. My children are safe now that
he is behind bars, deserving the punishment of the 
consequences of his immoral wrong doings.

The shadows beneath the stairs is what I believed to be my hell. 
I sat there. I cried there. I mourned there. I died there.

Date Written: April 6, 2016
Copyright © | Year Posted 2016

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Cheema Avatar
April 11, 2016 at 1:24 PM
Heart rending, Luloo! Don't now whether to congratulate you or weep with you. Love...
Scars Avatar
April 11, 2016 at 3:32 PM
thank you Balveen :)-luloo
Misra Avatar
April 10, 2016 at 10:09 PM
Congrats on your placement, Laura Loo. Beautiful and sad.
Scars Avatar
April 11, 2016 at 3:31 PM
thank you Karam :)-luloo
Davey Avatar
April 10, 2016 at 7:35 PM
Congrats on your placement in this contest, well deserved
Scars Avatar
April 11, 2016 at 3:30 PM
thank you Brian :)-luloo
Allison Avatar
April 10, 2016 at 6:00 PM
such a heartbreaking poem LuLoo many congrats on your win:-) hugs Jan xx
Scars Avatar
April 11, 2016 at 3:30 PM
Thank you Lady:)-luloo
Haight Avatar
April 10, 2016 at 3:53 PM
Indeed, very powerful, Laura. Congratulations on your fine win! Hugs, Sandra
Scars Avatar
April 11, 2016 at 3:29 PM
thank you Sandra :)-luloo
Lawless Avatar
April 10, 2016 at 2:05 PM
Laura, a painful poem to read and ponder. The content overpowers the form, draws the reader into the horror of abuse for all concerned. Thanks for entering this one in the contest.
Scars Avatar
April 10, 2016 at 3:34 PM
thank you John I am honored for my placement in your contest...:)-luloo
Ncwana Avatar
April 10, 2016 at 1:54 PM
Congratulations on your placement Laura...hugs, Abo
Scars Avatar
April 10, 2016 at 3:33 PM
thank you Abongile :)-luloo
Turner Avatar
April 10, 2016 at 1:11 PM
Congratulations Laura on your placement in the contest. Abuse of any kind is a terrible situation. Peace my friend:)
Scars Avatar
April 10, 2016 at 1:15 PM
thank you DT..:)-luloo
Smith Avatar
April 6, 2016 at 9:38 PM
Hard to write about, terrible to read about. Happens to frequently...
Stoner Jr Avatar
April 6, 2016 at 3:41 PM
Wow Laura this is a heart stirring write filled with passion and plea. No one deserves to be tormented in such a way and would hope this is a well written fictional work and not a shared experience. Well written, filled with flow and clearly communicated without superfluous information. Truly a heart-breaker, thank you for sharing this piece.
Scars Avatar
April 6, 2016 at 4:59 PM
Thank you Robert, yes this is complete fiction. But it happens too much...-luloo
Chircop Avatar
April 6, 2016 at 3:39 PM
Heartwrenching story Looloo...Unfortunately many women in 2016 suffer different types of abuse, and yes some even lead to death.. Deep poem indeed.
Scars Avatar
April 6, 2016 at 4:57 PM
yes its terrible..thank you :)-luloo
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