The Queen's Letter 5

for here you come again, what words do you carry for me to hear? why do you seek to soften my heart? a heart made not to love? yet men has carry your love to the bitter end. for your words has cause men to kill and woman to betray the man she claim to love! do you seek after me to be a fool as well? to allow some woman to murder me with your words in her heart? think me no less! I shall do neither love or hate, oh look I see you how you stand there in all your glory, yearning that I notice you, pray that I come to you to whisper something, anything in the wishing well. I am old and alone bitterness be my comforter and the sadness the breath of my heart. for there has not been made a woman who knows how to make my mornings come? and if Elohim shall being her forth in this world I alone shall not know her? now cross aside to let me pass for over there in darkness I seek to be! a cave alone for my punishment runs me mad. now where is the child man made call tears to seek out what human emotion has left in me, you love do not listen nor do you hear, how can I be an human when I alone am no more shadow? I alone stole the understanding of how life begin and how it would end! how the moon cast it's milky glow and the sun chase but not to catch only to pass me by? leave me old love in this suffering cave man call an human being? for I alone gave prayers that I shall not give in! let my death be an mystery even to me? repent you said, what is in words taken back? I have fallen to the deepest of hell and placed myself on a cross! look at me, see me, tell me what is left? I have given nothing and I have nothing to give and even if I did I would not give it! now go your way old love for now it is new hates turn!