The Mirage of My Perfect Love

A searing headache this morning my head splits In circumstances whose cause I can’t pinpoint In twilights when I teeter and shamble on my stilts As my head I wrack to diagnose the flashpoint That turns my world topsy turvy In the twinkling of an eye A deluge of emotional scurvy Debunks the lie I nurtured in the illusion Of the solid love I envision in my folly Coupled with aggrandized delusion I convince my mind wholly The love I’ve found rings true In substance and form Until in the fullness of time grew With stark clarity and celerity mere fabrications in my mind free did roam But the love I thought I held in thin air vanished without a trace Leaving holding the baby Alongside a stream of stress I’m grappling to address As friends and foes nickname me crybaby Because rivers of tears I cry twenty four seven Wondering why I allowed a heartbreaker at my expense into my heart to inject spears Forever stealing the best of me from my Heaven.