The Merciful Will Receive Mercy

You who live without a thought Of the damage that you do The rift you dug so deep Its spanning I can't see through You lie as a child in slumber While I rotate on this spit Trying to reconcile my heart and mind to make some sense of it I want to stay as I need to go For the sake of my sanity Wasted years unacknowledged Your eyes blinded to seeing me A merciful pretence of love Could you muster in my behalf Saying it's over when it never started let's end this on a laugh I was willing to settle for crumbs Crumbs were all you had to give Bits and pieces falling through Your self protective sieve I'm tired and just can't do this It's a puzzle I will not complete Just remember scared as hell my Own heart I threw like a child at your feet As vulnerable as a newborn I trusted I see now in vain Your love will not be forthcoming The old Trojan horse trick again Please do what I am unable Show mercy if you can Paint me that picture of the knight on white horse As when this travesty began Rescue me from myself Send me in peace from your door I promise I will darken it With my own shadow self never more